A Child’s Christmas in Saskatchewan

child christmasWhen I was a kid, winter was a cold white dragon, sleeping on the earth.  We could feel his sharp breath in our noses when we walked, bundled like Shackletons, down the long blocks to Mayfair School.  In the afternoon, we would hurry home in the settling darkness, crunch-step quiet, in case we woke him and he caught us far from our fires.  We knew he was there: slumber frozen, waiting to rise and fly at us, howling at our windows, scratching to get in.  No Jack Frost blithe spirit lived in our town; only the dragon, cunning and cold.  We had felt his sleet-sharp talons and had seen his icicle teeth.

But we were children, and children play, like laughter dancing on the wind.  Too cold for snowmen or snowballs, we made soaring angels, etched into the ground, walked tractor tracks on the neighbours’ lawn and hand shovelled frontier fortresses that never got done.  We skated at school and played four-boy hockey under the silvery lights of our night-barren street.  And we went sledding in the cold sunshine on a long Hudson Bay toboggan, old roped and so plank heavy it needed two older sisters to pull us.  And flew earth-bound on The Flying Saucer, a scoop of shiny round kick-dented metal that twirled and hurled us down the low prairie hills as fast as a scream.

And winter was books.  Library heavy, we trudged them home on Saturday morning, like eager travellers, our documents stamped by sensible women in thick-soled shoes, who handed them back with earnest accord.  They were precious passports to foreign lands where children were clever and had gardens and mysteries.  And later, in the deadly Canadian night that howled out loud, just outside, we tucked into pillows, and pajama-warm, called on our friends to come out and play.  And in the long dark, book marked and waiting, there was Sherlock and Tarzan and young Master Hawkins with “pieces of eight” and “the game was afoot.”  Heidi had goats and Huck sailed down the Mississippi.  And there was Ivanhoe and Mowgli and wild Alan Breck.  And one year, the snow and the cold were so deep we couldn’t go to school, and for one whole magic free day, the sisters read Little Women, out loud in the afternoon sleepy and on into the night.

And winter was thick knit socks and tasty mittens, that we called mitts, not meant for chewing.  They hung on strings to keep them safe.  There were big coats that zipped up tight and hats with flaps; pull-down toques and wrap heavy scarves: boots, never tall enough for the snow, which always crept in over the tops with ice melting fingers that searched for your toes.  They lived on the newspapers spread by the stove, half balanced on their necks and warm in the morning.  And winter was flannel: plaid shirts and pajamas and blue striped sheets with heavy blankets that came to your chin.

And winter was every-morning porridge, bubbling like a stomach ache.  We covered it with brown sugar or thick Rogers syrup that came in a can.  And there was soup that steamed so hot it would fog your glasses and burn your tongue.  It was made of big chunks of everything and pennies of carrots and harvests of lentils and barley and beans.

But mostly winter, at our house, was sweet with exotic smells: bubbling chocolate, pot deep and brown, vanilla, cinnamon and dates that became cakes.  There was coconut and ginger and bubbling raisins poured into tarts; layers of jam and shortbread, hard as hockey and tiny black squares of tough little fudge.  We had nuts, piled in bowls and peppermints and long flat boxes of Black Magic chocolates.  Sometimes, the sugar smell of whiskey, when adults had friends who laughed and told us we’d grown.  But, beyond all the rest, there were Japanese oranges, so rare they came nailed in wooden boxes, like the cargo of Oriental kings.

But none of that was for eating.  It was for Christmas, and when I was a kid, winter was Christmas.

Tuesday: A Child’s Christmas in Saskatchewan II

Christmas: The To Don’t List!

ChristmasOnce again, this year, Christmas has snuck up on me.  In two weeks (14 sleeps) Santa Claus is coming down the chimney, and I haven’t decked one hall nor bought one present.  In fact, I’m still sorting the plastic skeletons from Hallowe’en.  Not a good start to the most complicated festival in North America. Fortunately, I have a Christmas To Don’t List that always gets me through the holiday season, and I’m willing to share it with you.

1 – Don’t fight with your family.  Yes, the conditions are just right for a good, old-fashioned family flare-up: you can’t get away; you’re bored out of your skull and Ray’s wife is still the same bitch she always was.  But it’s only for a couple of days, for God’s sake — be nice.  Remember you can ditch your friends if they piss you off, but this is the only family you’re ever going to get — ever — and eventually you’re going to regret being a jerk, so make the best of it.

2 – Don’t tie into the adult beverages like it’s the end of prohibition — pace yourself.  Remember what happened last year.  You got Bob from Shipping under the mistletoe and started looking for his tonsils with your tongue.  You told Bashir, “man-to-man,” that you thought his wife Anna was really hot.  And then you explained to your niece (in detail) that her mother’s first husband was a juggler she married in high school but Nana threatened him with jail time and the marriage was annulled.   None of these drunken revels made for a very holly jolly Christmas, did they?   So use your head and tip the Christmas cheer in moderation.

3 – Don’t get carried away buying presents.  Just because the Three Wise Men brought gold, frankincense and myrrh (what the hell is myrrh, anyway?) that doesn’t mean you have to.  Those credit cards are not a license to go bankrupt.  Use your head: January’s coming.

4 – Don’t deck the halls like Clark W. Griswold.  Yeah, we all love getting into the Christmas spirit, but it’s simply not a good idea to turn your home into an illuminated YouTube sensation.  You have to live with your neighbours the other 11 months of the year. Never forget that.

5 – Don’t eat so damn much!  You’re going to regret it in 6 months when it’s swimsuit season and you look like an ostrich egg on legs.

6 – Don’t watch more than a couple of feel-good holiday movies.  Too much emotional sugar is bad for you, and your perfectly good Christmas is going to appear cheap and tawdry compared to what Bing and Danny accomplished.  And no Martha Stewart until January 15th.

7 – Don’t ever say “Christmas is getting too commercialized.”  You’d just sound like a middle class cliché.

And finally:

8 — Don’t forget Christmas is about loot — the presents you get and the presents you give.  Don’t just buy everybody the same old crap.  Really think about what you’re giving people and why.  And always remember the most precious thing you have to give — or you’re ever going to receive — is time.

A Child’s Christmas in Saskatchewan: Part 2

xmas cold4When I was a kid, the Christmas tree on Avenue E was the biggest thing I’d ever seen.  It stood in our living room like the edge of the forest, dark with mythology.  It was living green — in a shale-grey world of lost horizons.  And then: decorated by sisters, it shone like a towering angel with glass and gold ornaments from a time before a forgotten war.  They were paint-flaked old and saved precious from year to year — each one a story told until they were all forgotten.  But magic is an eternal tale, whispered by winter to children who were reminded they needed to be very good that year.

Good children got presents, but that was for later.  They lay hidden like treasure, in mother’s vast cedar chest, so cleverly concealed that only I and Santa Claus knew they were there.  Besides, it was time to read books.  Tucked into the pillows, my bed became one elbow adventures, as I leaned over Radisson and Groseilliers, paddling their long canoes loaded with pelts, or followed Hudson and Frobisher through the ice floes and another deadly Canadian winter that howled out loud, just window glass away.  And there were jigsaw puzzles with a million pieces that lost interest so quickly some of them never did get turned over — until sisters came to rescue the red dog trapped inside.  Colouring, with school crayons (already out of blue) and tracing with paper that got blue ink all over my hands.  And gluing, constantly gluing, until the school glue was gone and only the flour and water paste remained.  But mostly, we were travellers, following our own Christmas star to the fragrance of the East.

At our house, Christmas was sweet with exotic smells: bubbling chocolate, vanilla and dates that became cakes.  There was coconut, shredded into cookies, and raisins boiling into tarts; layers of jam and shortbread and tiny black squares of fudge.  We had nuts, piled in bowls, still in their shells: peanuts for children to crack and save in their cheeks, like gophers.  Peppermints and Licorice Allsorts and boxes of pre-Christmas chocolates.  Sometimes, the sugar smell of whiskey, when adults had friends who laughed and told us we’d grown.  But, beyond all the rest, Christmas was Japanese oranges, so rare they came nailed in wooden boxes, like the cargo of Oriental kings.  They were — and will always be — Christmas.

And Christmas was people.  Friends from the street, who played long afternoon games until nobody won and it was time to go home.  Huff-puffing neighbours, who swore and shovelled at angry cars, ornery and cold, that wouldn’t go where they were supposed to.  We all helped and pushed when we were told and “got the hell out of the way for Christ sake” when we weren’t.  Boyfriends who became brothers-in-law and let me sit with the men; other adults we only saw once a year and never again; and some we wished we never saw at all.  And everybody — coming home for Christmas.

When I was a kid, Christmas was our whole family gathered and growing like Topsy, year after year, until no single table could hold us.  But we tried for such a long time.  Parents became grandparents, sisters became mothers and then nieces became mothers, too.  New children have new Christmases.  Old children have memories, carefully wrapped and saved precious, like paint-flaked ornaments on a long ago tree.  And now we’re all gone from the old house on Avenue E.  Finding our own lives like rolling thistles shaken by the prairie wind.  And our children will remember their Christmases and their children, too.   But once, not that long ago, a giant tree shone holy in the deep grey prairie afternoon.

Merry Christmas, Everybody!